Title: Light in darkness

Gender: Female

Age: 30

Sun Sign: Virgo

Chinese Sign: Earth Goat

Location: Eagan, Minnesota

Wow.  What to say?  I should start by telling a bit about my life as of late. 

I feel that I have always been on a spiritual path and have had an appreciation for Divine Truth and Love since I was very young.  I constantly found myself wanting to go to church, or contemplating on Jesus and love.

It was not until in my late teens that I heard anything of meditation, enlightened beings or the journey of human consciousness.  While I found interest in this, I had been brought up in such a dogmatic practice (I was raised Seventh Day Adventist) that I found it difficult to shed those attachments.  Deprogramming was difficult for me and took quite a few years.  I'd say about 9 years, lol.  (Silly guna cycles and all…).  I went about my life trying to make myself the best person I could be, trying to stay healthy and work hard and dilligently towards my then goals, but I was not really in an awakened state.

Shortly before I turned 27, I basically crashed.  I didn't know it at  the time, but I was undergoing an intense phase of dejection.  I stopped working on my Masters degree (in the middle of writing my thesis) and quit my job.  Of course I did not leave the science completely (I was working in an immunology based cancer research laboratory), but needed a bit of a change.  Within a couple weeks after that I came across this wonderful spiritual group, and the first time I met them, I knew I was home.  Within one month after that, I met the guru of this group (as he was traveling to the USA), Sri Atmananda.  I knew him.  My heart knew him,  I creid and cried after I talked with him.  I truly had found my home and returned to my guide. 

The last two and a half years for me have been an exciting journey; exciting to my Soul and very challenging to my ego.  Every single thing in my life has fallen apart and collapsed.  I am now divorced (after being with my husband for 10 years), lost my job and my position in the graduate school program, lost my next job, became temporarily disabled (due to somewhat mysterious factors and pains) and have declared bankruptcy and lost my house in foreclosure.  Let's just say that Maha Kali has been quite active in my life, and bless her for it!  She is truly a being a Love for taking from me what I could not get rid of on my own!

Amidst this whole process of destruction and pain, I steadily learned more about my Path and my reason for embodiment, for it has truly been my anchor in a very turbulent time.  It gave me the clarity to know that everything was happening just as it should and that all I needed to do was calmly endure and continue to aspire.

Now begins the cycle of rebuilding on a proper foundation so that I can life to my Souls fullest potential.  With the grace of Divine Mother and my guru, I know that no obstacle is too great and nothing will stop me from manifesting my reason for birth.  See what is possible with an intense and constant aspiration toward the Divine?  I have no clue what my future holds or what I am supposed to do, but I have faith that Divine will guide me every step of the way.

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